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(no subject) [May. 5th, 2005|08:37 pm]
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Ok...I'm over this journal...it's too open to random people to know my shit...so I've got a real one so much more in depth and way personal..and by the way why the fuq is this distrbdchk trying to be all cool with me...uh noo
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(no subject) [Apr. 29th, 2005|08:54 pm]
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[Current Mood |amusedamused]

Oh FeFe FeFe...how right you are...I DID need a napkin...it's all SO clear now...but yet, you are So wrong...there was no oral action...So therefore, it must not be quite ThAt clear of what IS on the tape...and personally I really don't care if you saw or not, I just don't see the point in wasting your time

Laura came over today and we washed the car and the Paki'z 'cross the street are SoO FuQiN CrAzI...they couldn't take their eyes off. They get weirder everyday...

WoW...things get juicier everyday...So...is *no name 1 * going to prom with *no name #2* but is GoInG to go out with *no name # 3*? Ah HAH! I shall FIND OUT!

Later LEzBiAnZ!!~C u At parade tomorrow and my whorish self-HelL YEAH!
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(no subject) [Apr. 29th, 2005|11:11 am]
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Okay, so let me just say this...I WILL be class of '07 with or without that video and whether it stumbles into the office or not, it's all Bull...I didn't give head. So, if you want to keep on going with your immaturity, go ahead, but who's the loser if you do...either way, not me. Go ahead, show your face, I don't care...if you're thinking of starting something, I highly recommend you don't...Fefe isn't worth a fight.
And about me being callled a slut...Oh yeah! So offensive...you're a slut too?...Like you care I called you one, right? Yeah, same here, say whatever you want...oh and band would have nothing to do with it anyway..oh...I'm a "band slut"...Omg! Who cares...Oh and YOU me friend, are NOT my friend

50 bucks and a video plus a great man-besides, whats your opinion to matter anyway?

You're not worth stepping up to
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BuMpEd my head during Mad Passionate sex cuz I DoNt ReMeMbEr Giving HeAd..this iz awesome... [Apr. 27th, 2005|08:07 pm]
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[Current Mood |happyLoL]
[Current Music |Lindsey Lohan-RuMoRz...what a coincidence]

Yup, it hasn't failed...she still insists on commenting like shes uncapable of being normal and once again acts like shes diagnosed with some mentally deformed illness. Go ahead show people WhAtEvEr it is you have, you're still revolving your life around me and honestly I take it as a compliment...I mean, why else would you be so involved in making my life "hell?"...if that is what you are trying to do...FeFe, were you deprived of a sane childhood and therefore resort to attempting to destroy others?...OR mAybE it is your just jealous that I'm in a stable relationship and a guy don't wanna keep you for a day...maybe cause your head sucks?...Whatever-glad I gave you a good show...lay off the drugs! You're halucinating...so, like I was saying bout being hypocritical-I guess you're just one of "us"...the "immature and ignorant"...Aww, FeFe finally fits In...isn't it amazing? She's not an outsider anymore

eyesOFaCALAMITY: you just annoying. you talk to much in class about stupid
shit.
you act like you dont have one brain cell. and i dont like that fact that you
and your friends think acting like a lesbian to get guys attentions is fucking
cool cause its not, thats someones way of life

^^Aw Pobrecita...Sorry we offended your way of life...you must have thought me sucking a guy up was hot and you just wanted some home made porno so you can masturbate with your lezbianish self!

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*anonymous*:how can u sit there and call ME a stupid slut? ive been with my boyfriend for 2 and a half years, we have NEVER broken up. i didnt go out there and meet sum guy in the mall and fuk him 2 days later. whos the slut now fefe? u think people talk shit about me. HA! u shud hear what people say about u and ur white trash ass. why dont u like anyone ?
eyesOFaCALAMITY: its called growing up


eyesOFaCALAMITY: they are all so immature and ignorant

eyesOFaCALAMITY: but im not the typical white girl.. i hold culture.. and
different influences... you just so.. OMG

^^typical white girl...No...cause you're just some wannabe punk azz get high everyday fuq wit peoples lives cause I dont have one of my own...and you're right, that ain't typical, thats just weird and obsurd

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eyesOFaCALAMITY: everyone changes..
eyesOFaCALAMITY: i just changed first.. i grew up
eyesOFaCALAMITY: i realized that acting like a little kid.. is useless.. ive gotta
fucking move on
eyesOFaCALAMITY: i dont get any enjoyment from that anymore.. i need
intellectual times.. old people

^^Prooved that wrong, now didn't you? I guess you just realized that being intellectual and talking with old people just didn't fit in with your ignorant lame ass...now did it?

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eyesOFaCALAMITY: im not better
eyesOFaCALAMITY: im just in a more mature state of mind and dont enjoy the
company of immature people

^^Maybe not enjoy their company...so you just resorted to your own amusement..huh?

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*anonymous*: but im saying do u look down on them. do u hate them

eyesOFaCALAMITY: at times yea.. cause its like.. wow.. just grow up already..
get out of that stage.. theres no use of still being like that

^^"OmG! I tOtAllY aGrEE!"

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~

~*~*~*~ANNOUNCEMENT~*~*~*~
I GAVE HEAD ON THE BAND TRIP AND FEFES GOT IT ALL RECORDED...but if you wanna see some real action, don't settle for FonE SeX...I'LL ShOw you some ReAl Action...LiVe

There once-still is a quote-"Actions speak louder than words"...you're damn right they do...you talk bunch of shit bout growing up but give SUCH a different impression

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~

SoOo Alex N I R GrEat and *ToTaLLy N LuV*~I found my SuRpRiSe the other day so I kind of ruined it but it was SO sweet. I was kind of upset bout something and for once in a long time I felt really secure bout everything. He was like-Don't worry babe, you know I Love YoU-and I'm like yeah I know-and it was just a "close" day. I LovE him with all my heart and now more than ever I can say

"Bring on the day, Bring on it's ways cause I know through anything you'll always stay"

I LOVE YOU BABY!

He chose me over the other sluts~Now I know why~Because I have more respect for our sexual life then to just put it out there~And he likes a girl who can keep SeCrEtS...Yup...that's me, aWw...and he doesn't give a shit either bout ur fuck azz rumors

Love to MY lEzBiAnZ!!!
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(no subject) [Apr. 26th, 2005|10:05 pm]
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*RoLLz EyEz* Dumbfounded by how many BiGGeR issues people have than I...I can FIX mine...but there's, no...I think they're pretty much set on their character and if they want to spend time into centering their attention around my life...then so be it
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LoL [Apr. 26th, 2005|09:38 pm]
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[Current Mood |gigglyDorkz]

Quoted..."WoW"...some people are lower than dirt for pulling some lame rumor that I don't even care about...I know whatever "proof" they have is some pretty inaccurate shit...maybe it looked like it, but they're wrong, and wrong for doing it...FeFe...if you think you're so much better than everyone else why don't you quit with your immature ways like some white trash hoe...All this prooves is your hypocritical ignorance and if you're trying to make me look bad for some obscure reason-the only people who are going to care anyway are your friends-so not like that means anything to me anyway cause any friend of yours I wouldn't care bout anyways...If you're trying to get people to turn on me, or ruin the reputation I have...it won't do good because for one-my true friends won't give what I did if I did do anything and for two, everyone knows my reputation ain't innocent-So Nice try...um Wait, No I LiEd-LaMe! So for the record, I don't know what you recorded, but you've got your facts wrong and if you think it makes me look bad and you look like some sweet bystander, think again cause we all know where you've gotten round..but no one says anything, cause it's same ol..."Oh FeFe slept with so N so"...oh thats expected...and to whoever wrote the comment-I'm sorry I don't get around to give guys head so you can get a slut to do the job because that stuff is personal and I keep it to the bedroom between me and my man and I wouldn't dare give the pleasure to let people KNOW otherwise...
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(no subject) [Apr. 25th, 2005|08:42 pm]
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[Current Mood |weirdweird]

*Fantasies don't come true-But I wish they would cause I'm drowning in undying nightmares*

My uncle is visiting down from North Carolia*I think I'm failing my English class*I've missed two homework assignments in math class*My room has a funk smell-but it's clean*I'm freezing and wish SoS could keep me warm*My computer was being "very sweet" today(Piece of Shyt)*I'm going Lindsey Lohan style and trying a "new thing called not talking behind peoples back*

~Someone has to be a bytch, otherwise the world would be perfect-and perfect get's boring~

I think I'm losing Alex-So far within' the last two days he's decided to pick me apart ever so little by saying I'm "mean" and have an "attitude"..and he doesnt want to "date a black girl"...Uh! NO! I'm not...NoOo...I tried to really think this over, and I think it all started because of this jealousy thing...which led into being a bitch-and now I'm a *MeAn GiRl*...See, I let "defending my property" get too far so now instead of just ShOwInG girls not to mess with me~I've actually TaUgHt them not to...now they don't have anything to do with me and I've become this overobsessed mean girl who jsut LoVeS to Gossip bout all the great whores in school...yup! And Now I think My boyfriend is starting to dislike me more and more...and it was all because I tried to just fight for what i had FiNaLLy FoUnD and WaNtEd To KeEp...Comprende? Aye...I just love him, and when I think about it, I use to be THE sweetest girl-come to think of it I DID make fun of that FAt HeFFer(oh that was mean) in my 5th grade class...but it's okay cause I'm nice to her now...I jsut don't talk to her..anyway, yeah, so I cry like ALL the time because I HAVE turned into this ginormous MONSTER form HaiTiz...but Alex said he'll help me be nice-but all you sluts who think you can take advantage of this-DONT! Because He'S MINE and he taught me how to punch! HeLL YeaHs...that's where I get my anger from!! HeHe okay now I'm just rambling-TTYL Ya'LL
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I just Shut Down more evEryday [Apr. 25th, 2005|04:38 pm]
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[Current Mood |sadsad]
[Current Music |Michelle Branch-Over You(I think)]

I guess I gotta put on a Happy Face and pretend I'm Okay...
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Damn MOTHER FUCKING SHIT! [Apr. 24th, 2005|09:44 pm]
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[Current Mood |bitchyPISSED AZ HELL]

ok so liKE real pissed. Seems like Alex is always in a rush to get off the god damn mother fucking phone when we're saying bye and it's starting to piss me off to high heavens like I'm some boring worthless piece of shit!!! He said his Parents were yellin' but you know what they can go fuck themselves...they're shit and they can eat mine and CHOKE ON IT! I'm just STARTING TO GET IN A REAL FUCKED UP MOOD AND I DON'T WANT TO PUT UP WITH SHIT ANYMORE! ITS TO THE POINT I'M SCARED TO CALL CAUSE SOMETHING ALWAYS GO WRONG AND IF ANYTHING ELSE GOES WRONG I THINK IMMA JusT FUCK MY LIFE UP SOME MORE! GEEZ! I JUST WANNA SAY I LOVE YOU-I LOST FUCKING CONNECTION WITH MY CELL-WASN'T A PROPER GOODBYE SO YOU GO N START GIVING ME A FUCKING ATTITUDE LIKE I'M AN ANNOYING ASSHOLE BITCH! WELL SORRY SO FUCKING MUCH IF I DON'T MEAN NOTHING TO YOU AND THAT YOU MEAN EVERYTHING TO ME I JUST WANTED TO CALL N SAY GOODNIGHT FOR REAL!! UHHHHHHH! I SWEAR ONE DAY IMMA FUCKIN GO INSANE AND AINT NO TELLING WHERE I'M HEADIN! FUUUUUUUCCCCKKKKKK
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(no subject) [Apr. 23rd, 2005|10:01 pm]
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[Current Mood |crushedCrying 4 lOvE]

Hm it seems lots of things just need to be gotten off my chest, yet, they all seem so personal...too personal...maybe not, but just too inappropriate for an online journal, therefore...I had started a real journal...one that I write in with ink. It's quite sad actually, the things I write, but it seems with each day is brought more agony, more depression and just a bit more hell to the heaven I once lived. Every once in a blue moon do I ever feel something is accomplished. April 21st-great day, too good to be true...that's why once again I am talking of my bull shyt day. It's later than ten o' clock and still no call from Alex. I've called 3 times and gave up...cause you know what, I've mentioned it more than once before that I hate how he doesn't pick the phone up to give a Hello and it seems he's forgotten. I've been neglected, it seems, it sucks and I just want to think that I'm invisible-the only logical reason why there wouldn't be a reason to call...cause I'm not there. But I am, I'm here, and there's nothing wrong with wondering what he's doing. I'm sick of it-I call and he'll wait till late at night like that's the only time in the world he has for me. Do i bother asking how is day went, since he didn't include me-Do i bother telling how MY day went, if he cares to ask...since he didn't care to know before? Do i bother to care bout anything...Do I bother to love what doesn't feel like love anymore? Do i bother to keep TrYiNg to explain what's not coming out right because it'll just come back and bite me in the ass?...Do I bother to live life with a purpose anymore?...A phone call says a lot...and when there isn't one...it means just the opposite-nothing...is that what I am? N-O-T-H-I-N-G That's how it feels. Every call I make-He's out somewhere, no answer-No Alex...What about me? No, I'm not ungrateful for what he does do, but is he even grateful that I take time out of my day to check in on him, to say Hello?...JUST, where is his heart for me? I don't get it...it's a phone call just to say hello because that's what love is...I mean, he loves me right? Why don't he show it by caring enough to remind me that I AM on his mind and I'm NOT forgotten and I'm just THAT important that he can take a minute to see how I'm doing?...to see how My day is going? To see that I'm still alive?...because with every breath I'm falling deeper and with every step I'm becoming weaker...and with every minute passing by my life is too
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